My baby boy turns one tomorrow.
It's different when your second child ages. With Whitney I remember when she a month old and thinking, "Oh no, she's growing up on me!" It seemed every single month I would mentally note that she was aging quickly. With Jake it was different. I'd been through it before. Oh I certainly took joy in the first time he smiled, the first time he crawled and the next day when he was pulling himself up. But it wasn't with a sense of panic that I was already losing him to the outside world. Until today. It caught up to me today that my little, precious baby boy is turning one. I blinked and my boy aged on me.
I didn't even want to pull up the birth photos because I knew I'd see such a difference in the way he's already grown. I knew it would send me sobbing. But since I had my amazing friend Kelly Park photograph the birth, I should show you after all. That's what pictures are for. To remind you of those wonderful moments, bring you back to how you felt, and to cherish knowing that you were that lucky.


Thank you Kelly.
A couple from me:
Jake initially had some breathing and eating issues when he was first born. He sounded like Darth Vader when he inhaled and exhaled and wasn't putting on weight. At 7 weeks old he had surgery to correct it. Of course nobody wants to see their new baby go through something like that. But spending time in the pediatric ICU was a pretty enlightening experience. We were very blessed. Here's my sweet little thing in my arms all IV'd up. (iPhone pic)
After surgery, the doctor told us it would take about 12 hours or so for his breathing to sound normal -- after the swelling in his throat went down. I remember holding him in my arms that evening just waiting for this moment - this sign - to know he was "cured". Alex took the overnight shift and when I came back up to the hospital around 6 am the next morning he looked at me and gave me his first smile. Alex had just gone to put our stuff in the car and I started excitedly saying, "He's smiling! He's smiling!" looking for someone to confirm it for me. But it was just me and him. There was my sign.
Besides his big smile, of course his other signature characteristic is that hair.



It completely amazes me that this boy is so happy. That's the biggest thing I've learned from him this year - always to keep smiling. Simple lesson, but one I easily forget. Fortunately he's there to remind me.
I love you baby boy. Happy Birthday.